i miss ant.

i didn cry tdy le.

he jus has that kind of effect on me.

my dad wanted to go for supper but i had totally no appetite. all i wanted to do was to go home. its aft all, my comfort zone. i wanted to work on my connection problems, to go online, to tok to pple, to blog! e very 1st ting i did was to sit at my desk n settle e techie problems. was really stressed up n taking a toll on me. my rm became a mini IT office. 2 laptops, 2 persons n a troublesome router +LAN connection! ric was really helpful when i approached him bout it. was realli apologetic when he offered to dl sth frm e net only to realise tat i had all tat information on my hands already. mich called n i left my rm n my sis to fight e battle alone. was still in a sorry state when i toked to mich. THANKEW mich fer checkin on me. really felt like tokin to him n mich encouraged me to let him noe hw i was feeling. aft putting down e fone, i jus wanted to retreat to my bedrm, chase my sis out n gather all my courage n call him. aftall, though i consider myself to be 1 hu noes him real well, when things happen, pple change n when u thot u noe dem, act u dun at all. but e moment i entered e room, red bloodshot eyes, my sis said tat i was connected n i was so happie! wahaha! i immediately signed onto msn n he msged me!!! wahaha! well... tokin to him really was e highlight tdy! i was realli happier. jenny msg-ed me n she noticed e joy in my tone. well...called him to tok aft tat. he wanted to check on me. budden i was realli on cloud 9 when tokin to him. i told him all i wanted to say. he listened, he replied, he cared. it may b white lies or a front to deceive me but i realli trust him n i noe this fren is a keeper. i dun wanna put down e fone. really.but i had to. i went to bath n well continued chatting wif him on msn. it was really in a long time tat i felt tat we were conversing, both of us enjoying it. mayb its true. if things reverted to hw dey were b4 we got together, everyday wld b a happie day. well, i was really touched by his reply when b4 he left i told him i really miss him n i meant what i said. Thanks ant for all tat u said. u realli make a difference to me.

i noe ric n mich r protective of me. Putting things in e nicest way in fear that i wld be further hurt. Thanks. but i noe that my eyes cant be welling up all the time. its still up to me.

u feel nth for me already i noe. den i guess i made e rite decision. i miss you. i cried halfway thru the lessons tdy. u hurt me. u noe that but u chose silence. i ve driving tml n im scared to face it. nobody encourages me like u do. nw on e train. surrounded by so many pple yet i feel that im e loneliest n least happie person. i dunno hw i wil get pass tonite but i must. i dunno hw to tell my fam. i wish u r here nw. me cryin in ur arms. i noe u wld hate tat. my comfort pple r nt wif me. its jus me n e cold heartless nite. thoughts running amok. if u r readin tis, return me e book ya?

thanks ant for all u ve given me. i dun see u as a bastard neither do i see u as a jerk. u r a good fren n i dun wanna lose u as 1. promise me tat u will practice what u preach. u said " as a good fren". u r my good fren n des no running away frm tat. im so hopping that i will get a reply frm u but u wun. u wil b like... nvm...i wldn noe. hmmm... i miss ur voice n all ur funny antics. im envious when i c u conversing wif everyone joyfully. i miss gg for suppers wif u. i miss late nite walks. i miss tokin to u while u ride. i miss hugging u when u ride. act u r my most "comfort person" n e person hu can tok to me e best ever since i came to SIM.

u made urself an integral part of my life ever since the beginning of sch n ya i chose wad i decided n im bearing e repercussions nw...it wld be diff nw...so much more alone.

my right foot is giving me a huge prob. it hurts when i try to walk faster or even run. i wonder hw i can drive properly tml. sigh!

i dun feel happie neither do i feel sad. i jus feel down. depressed. cant seem capable to put a smile on my face at home. wif mich n ric ard tings r definitely better. "comfort food?" haahaa! if des a term for it, dey r my "COMFORT PPLE" haahaa! i was left alone wif him on e bus aft mich alighted. tot tat it was gonna b awkward but it was in days tat i enjoyed a gd laugh wif him. aint up for furious crying n uncontrollable sobs but cld feel tat i was suppressing e tears. aft reading ric's msg which was supposed to have a calming effect on me made me worse...haahaa! wasn ric's fault! jus me being overwhelmed by his literary talents! haahaa!

went out wif pa n ma jus nw to tm to get rechargeable batteries n goggles but i ended up spree-ing myself! stopped short of a bossini belt tho! haahaa! hmmm... KAREN! i got a red arena polo tee! haahaa! yeah! even my dad agrees tat it is quality for money! n another same brand pair of sunglasses but this time dey never gif e glasses pouch leh... hmmm... OG is better den Metro! haahaa! hmmm...i still thot i bought quite a few stuffs but act its only 2! haaha! hmmm...shld hav bot e belt den! haahaa!

was quite pek cek wif IT stuff jus nw! my rm phone cldn connect to e other headsets in e hse n me n my dad spent like 1/2hr fixing it but to no avail. den my sister took it fer like 10mins n its ne recharging in my rm prep fer use! haahaa! well... but its nt like i wld be using my rm fone tat often nemore! hahaa!

welll... went watsons jus nw... mum asked me to find her a hand cream fer a fren of hers fer <<<<<<<<$10. hand cream. was lookin at e redoxen (or sth) tablets. fybogel n redoxen. well, aft all i chose what i did. no use reminiscing rite? haahaa! i feel like crying but guess i dun wan to on the other hand cos i want to prove to myself tat im not weak. i cried like der was no tmrw e last time. this time i wun let myself fall into it. 2 separate lives which r no longer entwined. der is sum getting used to ard here. dun like to stay at hm. mind wanders everywhere! like to be in e company of frens! COMFORT PPLE! i had such a big scare juz now! was tryin to slp when i felt my bed vibrating from left to right at my most sensitive area! MY BUTT! i was so scared! my mind started to wander to e paranormal side. what if der was sth under my bed? i mean according to old wives' tale, pple r e most vulnerable to such stuffs when dey r bloody n well, things r not gging smmoothly for me aftall rite! yah man! scenes frm ju-on were like haunting me lo! like wad if der was a kid underneath my bed shaking my mattress. i was so frantically tryin to CALM myself down. kept tellin myself tat everything is fine n tat i was thinking too much. but i even thot if der was really sth, was i gonna shout fer dad or my mum! haahaa! hw silly i was! it was only until my aunt called me tat confirmed my suspicions n well its all over channel newsasia now! n my stupid nike bottle was "releasing air" again...which made me more paranoid i even thot bot wad wld happen if my air-con exploded n hw im gonna tell u guys cos hp r not allowed in hospitals right! den i went on to think bout hu wld visit me in e hospital.

well...u cant blame me! its e time of e nite where u feel tat u r e lonliest person on planet Earth! eveyrone is asleep. n when things happen u wldn noe hu to turn to. neway! aft an entire day, my wireless network still cant detect e default network! im giving up!try again tml! guess im gonna slp wif channel newsasia on tonite. dun wanna feel all alone! haahaa! ;P

heyhez blog! im SINGLE! im nt cryin. im nt sobbing. im nt sad. dun worry bout me ya! im act laughin n smiling nw. NOPE! im nt mad n im definitely still sane n i haven lost my mind! haahaa! he wanted a time out but i dun wanna b a dummy awaiting judgement day so i proposed a break up. i tink im brave! haahaa! mayb i will b crying my heart tml mayb i will never feel sad at all. everything is gonna b alright! tml i will b seeing him in e gym wif mich n nix n ric. i hope der will b no awkwardness n everything will revert to hw we were! everybody will jus b everybody yah! mayb im saturated. mayb subconsciously im oso v tired. mayb...neway i tink i feel great! haahaa! mayb things wil set in tml...jus MAYBE...haahaa!

im bushed! 9am-5pm of maths lessons!!! i act survived it! haahaa! well... basically tdy was a dramatic day! im a SURVIVOR!
slept fer 4hrs
cold war with ant
silent policy with ric caught in between
he broke e silence
thrashed stuffs out
2 diff stories
super black face
3-way call (me n ant n mich)
we ve nth to worry bout
abused him
dinner wif ric at california pizza kitchen (YUMMYLICIOUS)
toys r us
concussed on train
took cab hm frm pasir ris
irritated wif ants cohabitating wif me
last but not least, everything's fine! im SORRY guys...Thanks for ur concern! we r gd! haahaa!

dun feel like tokin at all! sorry babes! im jus utterly pissed off! all i want nw is to resolve tis matter rationally n peacefully. i wanna tok things thru. i wanna say tat i cld hav reacted otherwise but it is not my fault to begin with. to begin with i merely asked a question which needed an answer. i noe u feel pressurized into giving a politically correct answer by huever was present yet tat was gg against ur wishes n u didn noe wad to say budden u didn ve to shw others n myself as tho i was annoying u. i dun wanna waste money on cabfare. i hav to tink 4 myself as well. if u r nt gonna do it den i wil leave wif yp n em n take a bus frm hougang bud yp was v nice to send me straight to my doorstep. THANKEW YP!!! i dun wanna end up havin to take a cab hm late at nite or to ve to bear wif ur constant reminder tat u dun feel like or even to shw me a black face lo!

btw! tis is my blog n i can say wadever i wan!

if nt 4 u sayin wad u said over e fone i wld hav gone back n saved u ur face! u noe hw i hate it when u become so totally commanding n mcp!wadever!

*NOTICE*
Please IGNORE this entry as the contents may give u goosebumps n make ur hair stand! Haahaa! Mushy-ness: 4.3/5

Crampsss throughout e entire day!!! JIU MING AH! wahaha! i wanted to study! REALLY! but i gave in to e CRAMPS! nua-ed n camped in front of e tv since forever! kept wishing tat ant wld visit me! *siGGGGHHH*

WELLLLLL... HAAHAA! HE DID!!! ard 11!!! haahaa!!! e dum dum gave me a call n surprised me at e side gate! wahaha! wif MANGO STRUDEL!!! haahaa! COMFORT FOOD!!! WOOHOO! SO SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET!!! Im a happie person!!! haaahaa! he was up since 8am n he kept complaining of muscle aches due to gym e day b4 yet he went all e way to bugis strudel hse to get strudels b4 delievering to my hse!!! THANKEW!!! throughout e day i kept hoping tat he wld come n pei me but noe-in hw bushed he was i didn dare speak of it blatantly! BUT HE CAME!!! wahahaaa!!! okie! tats v SWEET! haahaa! n he gave in to me by stayin n pei me when he jus wanted to pass me e strudel n b on his way hm! wahahaha!!! so XING FU! THANKEW!!! But e strudel didn taste as nice as when i was having it at his hse...hmmm...he was saying tat he wld only do such things once in a while so i replied every mth?!? heehee!

*U MAY RESUME*
ric helped me reformatted my comp yest budden it lagged e moment i fiddled wif e wireless network upon reaching hm! THANKEW RIC! haahaa! so nice! so cute! he act read up on e net hw reformatting instructions b4 goin ahead wif it! haahaa! SO, i reformatted my comp again jus nw n YEAH!!! everyday seems to b in mint condition! Im so kiasu! haahaa!i dl-ed spybot, spydoc, ad aware jus to protect my comp n dey r under e folder "DEFENSE PROGRAMMES" haahaa! once bitten twice shy! haahaa!

wahaha! i jus cant stand myself. haven even started bloggin n i feel like sleeping already! on 53 nw! gg to bishan macs to study wif ric n mich! u noe wad! i was so malu-ated jus nw! was jus tryin to clear out sum junk on my comp cos i will b reformating it ltr n my sound driver was missing so basically my comp is living in a silent world. i clicked on this pict cos it was so dark i cldn make a ting outta it but before i knew it, my speakers were blasting sum commotion n it wasn jus a pict! it was a video! qi si wo le! n der i was frantically tryin to X it while tryin to maintain my cool. worse ting was i guess i blasted e ear drums of e girl in front of me not to mention e shock she not already had! haahaa! IM SORRY!

die! i only hav a mth left to exams n i ve been slackin too much! mus realli pia all e way! as tpjcdb team puts it its high time to KI-AH already! HURR! help me ah! ok ok... steady myself man! no more late nite tv shows! if possible STUDY! b4 i sleep! hurr!!! mus get myself in e A’s condition! haahaa! wake up watch lil tn til like 3pm den study all e way to 3am n repeat steps 1 n 2! wahaha!

okok! my arms r aching, im a bit sunburnt n des a red bump aka pimple on my nose nw! haahaa! e aft effects of windsurfing! haahaa! my conclusion to beginner windsurfing?!? step one. try to stand straight n bal on ur board while attempting to pull up ur mast. step two. fall into e water. repeat these 2 steps n basically dats wad i spent this 2 days doin! not to mention being drifted to near or far e shores n compound n thus half e time doin self rescue e 1st day n draggin my boat to somewher conducive e 2nd day! but in between it was full of fun n laughter n getting wet n dirty wif sand! haahaa! im gg back! one day!

hmmm....econs frm 6-945? pm jus nw! it’s been a long time since i stepped foot in SIM! haahaa! almost forgot hw to get there n hw long sia! haahaa! neway! i can say i understood 95% of wad he went thru except e last qns! too fidgety! haahaa! den me n ric n ant went upper thompson to ve supper! haahaa! MAKAN again! we had zhi3 cha4 n dim sum! wahaha! $6 each! WOOHOO! i never new tat part of SG existed! a mini geylang cum jln kayu on its own! haahaa! KOOOOL!!! pple hu like to go fer supper pls add this to ur collection!

went out wif e TWIN TOWERS tdy! taLL n SLiM 175cm, approached by 2 model scouts while we were shopping in orchard tdy. want their #s??? let me noe! depending on my mood, i will let u noe! yeah! i bot TWO watches n a fila polo tee! GO GET IT! so many colors n only at $18.90!!! i bot YELLOW! wahaha! tot fer so long luckily previously i didn when it was at 2 fer $49.90! wahaha!!! GO GET IT PPLE!!! when i say u can wear a diff color for each day of skool i tink im right! haahaa! (bhb) can pair it off wif denim skirt, jeans, khakis etcetc!!! wahahaha!!! GO GET IT!!! i bot 2 watches! 1 funky plastic cuff, retro lookin den another is white den quite class wan! 2 fer $18!!!haahaa!

jus came back frm ZOUK! yeah! drank cocktails! not bad can tahan!!! 3shots i suppose! we drank: watermelon martini, illusion n SEX on e beach! haahaa! FRUITY! more my kind! haahaa! e 1st time i wore a skirt to club! wahaha! nt bad wor! haahaa! neway we went to eat BAK KU TEH near der! V NICE LEH!!! haahaa! esp e soup! realli perks u up n super yummy! totally reverse my impression of bak ku teh lo! i so swakoo i didn noe u muz dip e youtiao in e soup!!! budden aft i dipped!!! SUPER NICE!!! haahaa! tink i look forward to eating der den zouking now!!! haahaa! OH! saw FIONA XIE n OLINDA at zouk!!! olinda looks a lot thinner in read life! n fiona xie was holdin this guy’s hand n swinged past me! her fig is realli like super curvaceous at all e right angles!!! tho she is like super petite! WEE-O-WEET!

neway! i cant believe im still surviving e nite! still tokin to mich on msn! haahaa! yeah! i managed to make mich dance tonite!!! her virgin club dance! wahaha! im POWDERFUL!

neway! i came to a conclusion! my perseverance in clubbing has gone down! last time to stay all e way to 3am is like not enough now! i cant wait to get out aft like 2 hrs! haahaa! to get food! neway! once more tdy mich has proven! everybody has e impression tat i m v guai n tat i dun club at all hence it will never occur to dem to ask me wht i club etc etc.. but everytime when dey hit e dancefloor wif me, dey will ask " do u club often?" hmmm... haahaa! neway! i wonder hw i look when i dance! haahaa! Guyish??? def not like those on e platform! so feminine n alluring!

sEE e sIMILARITY bETWEEN hAMMIE n pANG wEI?!? 

super duper bloody pissed off now! LADIES!!! dun u jus hate it when a guy says sorry for e sake of saying SORRY!!! WTH!!! jus when u probe what he is sorry for, he cant ans! worse still, he says " SORRY! SORRY lah! where got for what wan?!? " MING2 MING2 is his fault lor!!! he still li2 zhi2 qi4 zhuang4 say this kinda thing!!! WTH WTH WTHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! hurr!!!

this is MYblog!!! i shall say WADEVA i WAN!!!

• Would you marry for money?Hmmm...( Oh NO! IM CONSIDERING) haahaa! NOPE la
• Have you had braces?Nope! But i want leh! e left 1 next to my 2 front teeth is not in line!!
• Could you live without a computer?haahaa! Doesn seem like lo!
• If you could live in any past timeSec skool! esp sec 2! so fun!!! n pls i will make sure i remind myself not to eat so much during puberty!
• Do you drink enough water?Not really!
• Do you wear shoes in houses or take them off.Off! but i will parade ard e hse wif my shoes!
• What are your favorite fruits?all time: WATERMELON ROCK MELON HONEYDEW new addition: MANGO GUAVA
• What is your favorite place to visit?i wldn noe! i haven been der yet! haahaa! must b a combination of SHOPPING paradise sun sea n sand or cosy n ambience-tic! haahaa! everywhere! cos every diff place has it’s attractions!
• Are you photogenic?nope! budden im satisfied wif wad i see! wahaha!
• Do you dream in color or black andwhite?hmmm! in color definatelY!
• Why do you take surveys?nth to do pls e fact that i wanna noe what answers i will give n hw im like!
• Do you drink alcohol?YEAH! but LOUSY drinker!
• What is the most beautifullanguage?~when u say nth at all~ body language!d
• do you like being kissed when youare asleep?erm...ya...but nt when im dead asleep n snoring like a dead pig! i wld like it to b when im still semi-conscious!
• Do you like sunrises or sunsets themost?i think sunset! cos i’ve never bin in time fer a proper sunrise!.
• Do you want to live to be 100?not if im all alone...
• Is a flat stomach important to you?haahaa!!! if i say yes, im lying cos i dun ve one! haahaa!!!
• Are you tolerant of other people'sbeliefs?yes! as long as dey dun force it onto me!
  When you watch movies at home, doyou like the lights on or off?hmmm...on though...
• Do you believe in magic?i wld believe so!
• Do you think you can draw well?kindergarten kind? im a pro!haahaa!
• Do you like to watch cartoons?~fighting crime tryin to save e world there they go fighting crime, e powerpuff girls~YEAH!
• At what age did you find out thatSanta Claus wasn't real?heh...i guess i knew he was fake all along...eh! this is sg lo! not western countries!
• Do you write poetry?If i ever did...pple wld die of nonsensicality!
• Do you snore?only when my nose is blocked i think! but i do all sorts of funny things! like laugh in my slp n when i was younger, i grind my teeth!
• you sleep more on your back, front,or sides?back!
• Would you rather have a poodle or arottweiler?rottweiler! def not a poodle. i always assoc poodles wif tai-tais...
• Are you basically a happy person?hmmm...yeah...budden i wld tend to tink too much which wun b too happy!
• Are you tired?im alright! was act budden my dad woke me up n now im super duper refreshed!
• Did you drink anything with caffeine in ittoday?Noleh!
• Have you ever met the one off theinternet?No la!
• How many phones do you have in yourhouse?5ive!
• Do you get along with your parents?Ya! Y not?

haahaa! i cant believe what i spent e entire day doing! Im such a SLACKER! woke up at 2++pm...ate youtiao...booked my permanent seat before the tv n i never left! haahaa! alright! let’s see! i was changing my blog skin e entire aftnoon, watched this old old movie by tony leung n wu jun ru n wu qian lian, bout ghosts n der was really quite a twist to e ending. Hmmm...never despise these old movies some are even better than those cheesy ones nowadays! Then, i ate my dinner of YONG TAU FOO n vermicelli! FAVORITE! when i told my sis (nu nu) tat der was yong tau foo n curry chap cai tonight she was like " what’s e occasion"! so u can see hw ill-treated my meals r at home! haahaa! Neway i was watchin jiang hu by andy lau n jacky cheung wif my sis aft tat while deciding wht to watch Jim Carrey’s newest movie at e theatre, unfortunately, we cldn reach our parents! haahaa! SIGH! but i didn want to budge aft they came back cos there was CSI!!! WOOHOO!!! haahaa! n now! im watchin stephen chow’s 9 pin chi ma guan!!! haahaa! within my waking hrs of 9hrs i watched 4 shows!!! SCV is really LETHAL! haahaa! my sunday is gone! haahaa! hw "PRODUCTIVE"!!! oh man! STUDIES!!!!!!!!!

btw about e "FAMOUS GEYLANG BEEF KWAY TEOW ", ant was saying it might not have been famous at all if u noe what i mean. It cld jus have included in its sign knowing how brand conscious singaporeans r nowadays! so dumb dumb singaporeans like me ( haahaa ) will blindly patronise! haahaa! i mean e word "famous" cld hav had a psychological effect n while it may have not been so tasty n good pple wld ve sub-consciously believed that it was.

okok! whatever i mention in previous paragraph was just a big WHAT IF! neway, it was really good!!! lor 9 geylang!!! REM!!! aahaa!

haahaa!!! how does this blog look??? HAPPIE HOUSE??? WOOHOO! hopes this blog brings happiness to all!!!

yeah!!! so xing4 fu2 n man3 zu2!!! wahaha! let me enlighten u! me n ant went to watch HITCH jus nw at shaw towers. where everywhere else was selling fast n having their seats emptied til e 1st rows, e entire theatre at shaw towers were only having their back 2 rows filled up ! haahaa! HILARIOUS!!! EVERYBODY shld watch it! REALLY! Oh man! haahaa!

- woo... i jus realised tat my door was left slightly ajar... hmm... scaRrRRrRrYYyYY... haahaa!

neway! we went to GEYLANG aft tat! NOPE! nt to those " my husband spent the whole night watching soccer..." haahaa!!! basically i was curious bout e legendary red light districts n their " fish tanks " . yap! i manage to get a glimpse of e fish tanks, uv-like lights n them sitting there like mermaids. neway i saw this girl wearing jus a red bra as her top n she was tryin to conceal what i dun understand wif her jacket slung over her lap. i mean in e 1st place of u dare to wear such a skimpy outfit y wld u still bother to cover ur abs with a jacket, revealing e red bra fer all to see??? hmmm... ant was quite sian dat he didn get to see it! haahaa!!! kidding! neway he had to keep his eyes on e roads!

we parked at e youtiao king budden decided to try this " GEYLANG FAMOUS BEEF KWAY TEOW " i tell ya!!! it’s FABULOUS!!! really! e beef is like "WOAH!!! so soft n juicy n succulent!!! n when u finally realise hw nice e hor fun is, des no chance fer a 2nd helping, e plate is clean! " haahaa! it’s situated at lor 9 geylang n at a really weird location. it sits behind this coffeeshop isolated. e coffeshop is at e corner of e road so it’s like only when u walk outside e coffeeshop n right to e back can u see it! e aunties r super efficient too!!! haahaa!!! neway aft tat, i went to da bao you tiao king fer my fam!

let me tell u e wonders of "xiao jie(miss)" haahaa! i had to get a bigger red plastic bag to pack e youtiao cos it was sticking out of e smaller bag like a sore thumb! n all e AUNTIES workind der were so preoccupied with whatever they seemed like doing. n we had to evacuate fast cos it was like so hot. so instead of calling out "AUNTIE" i decided to say " XIAO JIE " i tel ya, at 1st i was so scared tat i wld make a fool outta myself by saying tat cos none of dem wld reply but i was proven wrong. haahaa! this auntie immediately turned ard n assisted me! haahaa! even ant n i were quite surprised tat i act called out XIAO JIE! haahaa! okie! ugotta b at e scene to see e farnie side! haahaa!

oh! in e evening we went to see val dance at e youth park!!! haahaa!!! deir getup was v cool!!! haahaa!!! n e music realli makes u groove but we really had a long wait! e only worthy item of tat day i wld say! was surprised to see davis!!! my pri skool classmate n neighbour at e park. haahaa! surrounded by babes frm e same dance team as val! haahaa! a typical ac boy i wld say! had quite a gd chat with him! u noe wad, i used to like him in pri sch but his best fren liked me instead! haahaa! not sure bout his preference tho! dun tink i was in his list! not babe-ish at all! haahaa! n aft tat when me n ant were waiting outside e theatre waiting 4 e previous movie goers to clear out, we saw tis girl hugging her frens 1 by 1 n saying thanks like right smack at e door in full view of everyone n guess wad, my pri sch best fren! amanda! haahaa! even ant cld see tat she was v potato pie!haahaa! angmoh pie! haahaa!

do-VAL re-ME mi-SER!!! haahaa!!! 

me n EDISON!!! YUANG ZHANG of SIAO GENG! haahaa! 

me n NU ER!!! peishan!!! A BABE!!! 

my MUM!!! 

my PAPA!!! 

iM iN LOVE wiF VENEZIA ice-cream n e only guy hu works der!!! haahaa!!! i tell ya i can eat it everyday n not feel guilty AT ALL cos it's gelato ice cream!!! i can eat ot for breakfast even!!!

im propped up on my bed, using the comp in the dark. gotta really squint to see the keys of the keyboard but otherwise it’s really comfortable. jus discovered an ingenious way so that i wun hurt ,y eyes! i jus bent e screen so that e light from the screen shines upon the keyboard n all i’ve gotta do is to look at the keyboard while i type! Eureka! wahaha!

feel as though the whole world is sleeping except me. Loneliness is really unbearable. I ever told someone that if one day i shall ever find myself living alone on this earth, i shall commit suicide!
Channel 8 is showing some old cheesy movie by some 2nd class celebrities i suppose. aNt is sick, went to bed early, dun feel like sleeping yet and dun really feel like tokin to anyone rite now except mayb ant. SIGH! wonder how he is doing. Was complaining of feeling achy all over n he kept having diarrhea the entire day he is normally so healthy n maintains quite a balanced diet!!! HURR! must b sth he ate. STUPID. wanted to go down n accompany him just now but he didn’t want me to. was saying that he will b grouchy n all. was really in a shock when he sms me saying that he is lying motionless in his bed n asked me to call him. FIRST time! hope he sees a doc 1st thing in the morn tml! GET WELL DUMBO!!!

sometimes i wonder, would a person be better off if he remains single. when a person realises that he likes or there’s someone who is capable of making his heart thump faster he will undeniably begin to miss the person n hopes that 1 fine day she will belong to him but would that happen? then again, when he is in the relationship with the one, he is afraid that one fine day he will lose her to whatever reasons it may be. True is that we should treasure what we have n not brood about the uncertainties in life or else we would b v unhappy n depressed. If only we all know what will happen in the future then everybody would own a perfect fairy tale and a happily ever after. But fate likes to play tricks on us and things often take unexpected turns. will never forget the twists, ups and downs in my life that have left their permanent mark there! how ‘bout u?

just hope that from now on, we learn to treasure whatever we have n learn to plan for the future so that we can make it a smoother and less bumpy road to tread on! YES! so guys n babes! start PLANNING for ur lives now. at least u took a step forward n got ur self started. u have already led the others by a foot!

COOL PiCt FRM WHERE i WaS SittiN! 

VENEZIA iCE CREaM!!! SUPER DUPER DELiCiOUS!!! i CaN VOUCH FER it!!! e BESt iS MaNGO n taRtUFU n RaSBERRY n LEMON!!! 

e BiRtHDaY CaKE 4 aNtY!!! i BaKED it WOR!!! 

tEStiNG tEStiNG!! ONE !tWO !!tHREE!!!

i spent ard 2 hrs baking a choco frosted blondie fer mich yet i was so tired i cldn bring myself to e airport to send heroff this morning!!!! ARGH!!! n i concussed till now- 1437!!! u see... i was supposed to slp ard 2+ den wake up at 530 so that i can catch e 1st bus frm bishan to t2...i got up alright but my eyes were swollen n i jus cldn make it... HAIZ!!! QI SI WO LE!!!

neway!!! i jus saw e macdonalds pamphlet promoting e breakfast!!! LOOKS SUPER DUPER GOOD!!!! 1 of these days!!! wahahaha!!! well...but of course!!! waking up early may pose a threat to my SUPERLICIOUS BIG BREAKFAST N HOTCAKES!!! OH man!!! i feel all perked up n happier already!!!! wahaha!!!

guess i woke up on e wrong side of e bed tdy... it’s raining too... perfect combi ya? well... guessed e 1st guy im in contact this morn is derrick!!! we were both blue last nite... wadever happened dude!!! TAKE CARE!!! im sorry i didn reply ur sms last nite!!!!

hmmm... spent a day at my dad’s office yest. basically it’s all family mem workin der now! haahaa! so e usual! e moment i stepped into e office... have to jiao4 ren2 already! felt quite privilege n exclusive!!! cos i was studyin in my dad’s rm! super cold air-con! den when i was bored, jus chatted to ne of my shu shu’s or shen shen or my dad! haahaa! well... managed to complete what i was der to do... haahaa! study! did 3 topics of my econs... b4 i rushed off to meet mich n ric n karen 4 SAKAE!!! e last i was der was wif e mot pple... e eat-all-u-wan n order-all-u-wan!!! neway... our common fav dish was FRIED tofu!!! bout 4 plates man! haahaa! i was rather surprised that it was only $14 per person... was prep to pay bout 20...WOOHOO!!! im gonna der nxt time again!!! since its not tat ex too!!!

wahahaha!!! okie la... now my mum is askin me to go fitness first wif her...to do gym n e yoga...pilates..etc etc classess... well...u all noe y she so nice invite me go la!

@ pARTY wORLD kTV!!! mY hAIR iS iRONED sTRAIGHT!!! 

i noe! i ve been neglecting my blog! go ahead! scold me!! scream at me!!! was blog hopping jus now n i realised tat even jia hui n li lian were blogging! well...it’s good to noe what is happening in their lives right now n to noe dem once again.

Not been feeling good about sth lately. Maybe what my sister predicted or saw will come true. I didn tell u guys that she tarot-ed it for me and e resulting story goes like this. oh darn it...i can't really remember it but neway, sth bout me being a fool n well...how promising can it look? i wonder...i’m just taking a step at a time n see how it goes from there.

saw my future flashing pass me. whether it will be bleak, whether it will b bright depends solely on me, myself. i noe for sure that now, my time mgt must be good, it’s a test of my time mgt, i must make it work! i want to be financially independent. act, i want to b an independent woman! 1 who can take care of herself n her family!

skipped all my mock exams cos i decided that since im not prepared i shldn go n waste my time! i dun stay near e skool n i dun wanna waste my travelling time der n back jus to "experience" e exam! from tdy onwards till my exams! everyday i should n will be concentrating solely on studying for my UOL exams!!! STUDY n REVISION!

talked to a SIM senior yest aft neglecting him on MSN fer quite a while. feels good to have had a chat wif him aft so long! caught up wif char n peishan via MSN too! altho we r all in diff schools caught up in our busy lives it feels real good when u jus hav a lil chat over e recent happenings in ur lives! old friends r e best! it;s jus like u 2 may not noe each other b4 but aft entering a totally different instituition together, suddenly u 2 jus feel like e best of friends, u 2 just became e most comforting n familar face in tat totally strange n foreign place. in e presence of old friends, u just totally let lose of urself ( not that u put up a fake front b4 ur new frens ) but e atmosphere just turns so relaxing subconsciously, mayb cos in front of ur newer frens u turn to b more careful, afraid to tread on taboo topics etc n hence more tense. if u feel u hav been neglecting a fren fer rather long, jus pick up e fone or send a msg to him/her n trust me, u wld feel good aft tat, happie to noe how ur fren is doin so will she...noe-ing that u still care n rem!

alright thats about it! m goin to ah pa’s office tml to study!gotta wake up at 830!