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Friday, April 29, 2005
Tire-ness, lethargic-ness, disturbed sleep, vivid n disturbing "dreams" n saturated mugging have finally gotten to me.
Feel as though I have earmuffs on. This morn mama came into my rm to tell me that popo is here. But I was jus so exhausted I didn even move an inch. Sidetrack:: ( Hmmm. I jus saw my choir jr, Hj's cousin, Xiao Han is on e ChnU's you hua jiu shuo Haahaa! Im making sure I will try n tune in! ) Neway, mama cld see it frm my non-expressive expression n commented that I was really tired n even asked wht I wanted ne food, but I said NO. ( Only to deeply regret it now. Waking up in a sian mode n des no food! SO ke lian! *hurr*hurr* ) Revision is tortoise-slow. Mayb cos I ve been too saturated n tired to absorb neting at all. I ve been rather unhappy recently, i suppose. But i dunno what is making me like that. Mich asked me last night wht I was unhappy. I suppose I was, budden again, mayb I was tired, mayb I was jus troubled. Felt that I didn even have e time to even go n think about what was bothering me! haiz. Guess they are all reflected in my dreams. Last night I dreamt that ( summary okie! ) I left on my own accord but when I decided to turn back n return, he was gone. Then 2nd dream was that I dreamt that we were supposed to learn this song in SATB n I was afraid that I wld drag the grp down by singing out of tune. Funny thing was Jen n Ric were in that grp too??? Haahaa. Well, figure out the hidden meanings urself. Hate it when u msg pple n dey reply only a thousand million years ltr or worser still dey dun bother to esp when u even asked dem a qns. " Do you know when you will be able to forgot yr ex bf? or will u still be thinking of yr bf even if another man comes along in yr life? are u willing to let go of happiness n excitement you can get frm the new man or rather remain in the shadow of ur ex bf? Why u never think that it is their lost when they broke up with u, why are u always the one crying when yr relationship fail n nt the other party? you are the best n the most unique gal,jump out of the shadow n fight for what u want. dont be the weaken party in a relationship, you are always the best in my eyes. they thought that she was the most happy when she was out at sea, they want to know what is making herl unhappy " Thanks for ur concerns bout me.
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Friday, April 29, 2005
Thursday, April 28, 2005
Dunno wads wrong.
Probably stress. Probably just wasn in e mood. Probably just POST-MS. ( which means that other den e period when Im actually experiencing my u-noe-wad, e rest of e time Im PMS-ing. hw pathetic. Haahaa! ) Just feel down. Just cant seem to be truely happie tdy.
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Thursday, April 28, 2005
Friday, April 22, 2005
I had a horrible NIGHTMARE tis morn! Wahaha!
Woke up feeling so insecure n wondering if it actually happened! Haahaa! Oh man! It's e worst! Summary of my dream.Hurm, shall I use e actual names? Okie. I shall. Haahaa! Im sorry. Neway, it's just a DREAM. In my dream, I still like A.( oh man! this is just too ironic. I cant stand it! Haahaa! ) M is my goodest fren n she knew that. Somehow, I suspected that there was sth gg on btw A n M. I confronted M n she confirmed my suspiscions. I was devastated. Me: How cld u do that to me. U noe I still like him. Her: But he doesn like u nemore. He likes me. Me: What wld u do if I told u that e person u like act likes me n it's mutual? Her: Then I wld wish u 2 all e best. Me: Speechless. Felt betrayed. Cldn trust neone no more. ( Haahaa! How DRAMAtic! ) Neway, I cldn believe what I heard. Decided to ask e male lead in this case, A. J, a mutual girlfriend of ours was present all e while. Me, J and M tried calling A altogether but he didn pick up any of our calls. Finally, he sent me this chinese moral-of-e-story kind of sms which I didn hav e patience to read or scrutinise. Simultaneously, M called through n explained to A what happened. M passed the fone to me n I was desperate to tok to him. He asked me to read e msg carefully n I wld get e ans I want. When I finally asked him wht he liked M, he kept quiet. The ans was clear in my heart. Neway, yah, in e dream I was heart broken but most importantly of all, I felt super insecure after e dream. Cos I tot I cld no longer trust neone at all. They were e 2 pple whom I trusted e most yet they did that to me. It was a DREAM.
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Friday, April 22, 2005
Wahaha! Had my last driving lesson b4 exams tdy. Quite draggy n sian. But when I tot bout e fact that Jenny n Ant may b coming to fetch me from driving really cheers me up by leaps n bounds. Haahaa. Well, cos Jenny's dad "RENTED" her e car fer a mth so, I merely said that I had driving lesson, she offered to FETCH me!!! Wahaha. Im so lucky! Mich I finally noe what u mean by XING FU! Haahaa. My lesson was frm 1245-225 budden throughout e lesson I kept thinking bout them coming to fetch me. When lesoons finally ended n I finally check my fone, A BIG SMILE really spread across my face when dey said dey reach e place. WOOHOO!
THANKEW JENNY!!! N ant! Haahaa! I was realllllly so HAPPIE to see them! Wahaha. Neway. I was thrown all alone at e back seat. The hierachy goes like this. Pple with license occupy e driver ( DUH! ) n front passenger seat. Aka jen n ant respectively. While me still a L plate sits behind so will ric. Which leaves e BOOT fer mich hu hasn even started driving lessons! Haahaa! Okie, not funny. Neway, there was ample leg n nua-ing space fer me at the passenger seats but it got quite lonely. Haiz. I kept leaning forward n was so tempted to jus sit on e floor. It was quite farnie frm behind. Haahaa. Jenny's seat was so front compared to Ants'. Haahaa. So cute! N Ant totally looked e part of an instructor. Reminding Jenny n giving her instructions. Aye Aye Sgt A.Wong! Haahaa. We got to sch in ONE piece! Haahaa. Had our lunch n barely warmed up our seats in e library when ant sms me. Suggesting that we cld go Queensway shop n ve dinner b4 coming back fer Amos lessons. But he didn dare tell Jen. Haahaa. He went fer a toilet break n during that time I asked Jen which b4 he even got out of e toilet we were all set n packed, waiting at e koi ponds for him! Haahaa. So, we went to Queensway. Haahaa. Ant was e big winner tdy. A pair of Levis limited edition jeans n a Nike tee. The indian owner of e shop was so nice n all. He's called Deen if I never rem wrongly. He even intro me to try Mens jeans. Haahaa! Which I did. N well, I think I will b gg back to try more n see if any suits me! Haahaa. But yes, yp u r right! Mens size is definitely SMALLER. I noe Im FAT but I had to try a Mens 33 b4 I cld fit my 3 trunks perfectly inside e jeans. Haahaa. But I like. Except fer e fact that my butt once again look squashed up n funny. I shall go back n try more! Haahaa! Deen is e kind of saleperson hu makes u feel comfortable in a pair of jeans which loudly n blatanly declare to e whole world tat u r donning a pair of 33Levis jeans! Haahaa! Ant took over e wheels while gg back. Haahaa. E moment he came out of e basement carpark, he almost hit this kiddo. But all was fine. Haahaa. Me n Jenny were e kancheong spiders! Haahaa! Jen was so funny. Cos ant was a bit rusty, she was like screaming at ant. Haahaa. It was really a funny sight to behold! Haahaa! We reached sch safe n sound n 5mins late. Haahaa. All I can say is that altho we were super not conducive n studious tdy but I really enjoyed tdy thoroughly! Haahaa! THANKEW ant n jen! Esp jen!!! Haahaa! fer giving in to me n antys demands! haahaa! I definitely felt safe n secure wif u 2 at e wheel. If u realised, aft e 1st time I didn even bother to buckle my seat belt even though I was leaning over so much n sitting in e mid! Haaha! risking rolling forward! Haahaa! THANKEW JENNY n ANT!!! We will share e carpark cost! Haahaa! If I can drive already, I must 1st noe hw to get to Ant's place. So that he can instruct me! Haahaa! hw to go sch, hw to go bishan, hw to get to chomp chomp, mich karen jenny n ric's place! haahaa!
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Friday, April 22, 2005
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Wahaha! I share e same BUTT size as jen n mich! Wahaha! we form e FAT BUTT club! I ve e biggest butt! Haahaa. Jen n mich r on par! But jen will be kicked out soon! Haahaa! Soon she will be ineligible( or wadever it shld b ) Haahaa! Me n Jen found tat out when we exchanged skirts in sch tdy! Wahaha! She wore my Denim skirt n I sub-ed her Khaki skirt. N they fit snugly lo! haahaa! Well, n since Jen can wear mich's skirt. The equation holds true.
Mich butt=Jen butt=KJ butt size! Wahaha! Neway, Jen is giving me her skirt! WOOHOO! THANKEW babe! at last pple hu I can exchange clothes with instead of pple normally drowning in my clothes! Haahaa! But she doesn want my denim skirt! How sad! Haahaa! Okie nvm! I shall throw all my cannot wear clothes to u n Mich! Haahaa! Yeah! e 3Rs. Recycle. Reuse. Reduce. ( Aft asking 4 pple. Only daniel knew. ) Haahaa. Only goes to show how SUCCESSFUL e campaign is. Haahaa! Neway. I own THREE trunks. My 2 thighs n my Waist ( hmmm... do I even have a waist? ) Haahaa! At the end of e day, PMS really set in. Didn feel like expressioning. Haahaa. Ask mich. My face is black according to her. Im sorry babe! Haiz. Sorry if I spoiled ur day! Haiz! I was irritable juz nw. Peeps! If u see me face black but I will still react to me n u noe its e time of e mth. Jus leave me alone. Haahaa.THANKEW for ur cooperation. Any inconvenience caused is deeply regretted! Haahaa!
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Monday, April 18, 2005
Embarked on a short shopping trip wif ant n jenny last nite! Haahaa. More like an image consultant to jenny n escorts to her. Haahaa! Super fun n deprived of S H O P P I N G!!! Just check out my shopping list to noe wad i covet! Jenny was e BIG winner last night lo! Me n ant went hm empty-handed! Haahaa. We were so "ON" bout shopping tat we totally forgot bout food! It was 10+ when we reach e Quality Hotel fer its $8.80nett Porridge buffet! Wahahaha! The food is good! Me n Jenny totally love e soft peanuts! We took bowls n bowls of it! Haahaa! It has been a long time since I ate such food! YUMMYLICIOUS! Haahaa!
Oh man! Last week I ve been so sinful! Haahaa. 3times of macs, 2 late night suppers! Wahaha! No wonder my tummy has been growing! Wahaha! Think plus e fact that Im pms-in so I feel even more BLOATED! Wahaha! Use my tummy as a DRUM! Haahaa! I wanna go GYM n RUN! Wahaha! Die ah. Sth is holding me back frm shopping. As in, actually bringing it to the counter n paying for it! Haahaa. I bio-ed e POA skirt fer SO SO SO long ( but they dare to say its new arrival. Haahaa! ) n when I finally tried it, it was perfect but I just KIV-ed. E same fer e 2 Nike tees. I just stopped short of paying. What is wrong! What is holding me bacK! Sigh! Haahaa. I need more tops. I think I ve enough bottoms. Neway. I cant fit into Levi Ladies jeans. The biggest size is 30 but they r too TIGHT for me! I hav elephantine BUTT N THIGHS! Haahaa! Neway, thing was I asked e person then what kind of jeans will fit BIG GIRLS like me. She said that there is this new Square Cut jeans tapered for guys which she personally feel is more of a girl cut so I can actually try tat out in the guys size! WOOHOO! Ant, wait for me! We go try together ah! Haahaa. Yeah! Quite looking forward. Went to study at heartland mall bk tdy. I prefer bk to macs! More comfortable cushioned seats which was evidently COMFORTABLE. Just look at e state that mich was nuaing! Haahaa. STOP POKING MY BUTT!!! Haahaa.Yah! Neway, it was quite a gd studyin day tdy. Haahaa. Ant n mich n jenny n me just crack one another up! haahaa! Thankew ant for pei0ing me wait fer 53 la! Thankew la! Haahaa.
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Monday, April 18, 2005
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Hehe!
Went 4 my first n last aut0-car lesson jus nw. 1245-225. I feel in love with it! Haahaa! Feel like a pro behind e wheel. Honestly. SIGH! Y did i take up MANUAL!?! It was just so kool! Haahaa. My instructor was kool too! Haahaa! E youngest instructor I ve ever encountered! Just chatted bout everything! Made me feel so at ease with driving an auto car! Wahaha! Till I was abit complacent. 4get to check my blind spots b4 moving on. Too breezy le! haahaa! Guess wad, so sad right. I woke up at 11 n e only things i ate so far were 2 CORNETTOS MINI! Haahaa! 4 a change, its nt XL!!!
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Sunday, April 17, 2005
You dun need a person u can live with.
You need a person you cant live without. Geddit? It's hard to explain. You need to experience it for urself. Dun put urself down n compromise unwillingly. A person worthy of your love will never have e heart to let u do so. The one is still out there.
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Sunday, April 17, 2005
Friday, April 15, 2005
Kai Jie doesn feel like chatting. Im so tired! I 've been up n running for 16hrs! Wahaha. Battery needs to recharge badly. Malfunctioning already.
Let me shout. Im stressed. I dunno wht I can complete all my study materials. I dunno wht I can rem all of dem. I dunno wht I can regurgitate n apply them all. I ve been playing receiver to everyone's problems. Overload. I wan somebody I can lean on n return to. I need TLC. Im feeling excited bout my auto-car lesson n driving test, YET, at the same time, Im scared n I dread. I need sleep. I wan e NICE feeling I felt jus now. Plain nice. My mind was in a blank. E cool breeze. Im jus saturated. I need a comfortable mattress, fluffy pillows n blanket which I can jus sink into. Surrounded. Security. Sweet dreams. Y cant pple jus gif simple ans when dey r asked? I hate it when sms-es flood me. Ok. I cant take it already. That is me. Irrational me. I wonder what e rational me will concoct tml.
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Friday, April 15, 2005
Thursday, April 14, 2005
Haahaa. Im back. Cos I cant bear to pull myself away frm this so-nice-n-conducive-to-type-keyboard! Haahaa! Okie la! I know hw irritating it sounds to other pple studyin. The tabs r so noisy n loud. How ironic. A library yet th ekeybords r super duper noisy! Haahaa!
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Thursday, April 14, 2005
wahaha! I cant stand it! wahaha! me njenny r bloggin using e cyber stations now! HOW KOOL! Haahaa! ant jus reached sch but me n jen r dying! Haahaa!
Super monotonous life nowadays. It goes like that: Wake up in e morn. No breakfast. Usually within 1hr Im outta e hse. Run errands 4 myself. On e train to skool. Skool. Brunch. Study. Lessons. (Supper) Home. Online. Msn , blogging, on the phone n TV. Sleep. That is the main structure. n this viscious cycle repeats itself all over the nxt day. A viscious cycle. Okie. That is it for now! Back to IBM! Plugged into Perfect10. Cant wait to go hm n go online where everyone congregates nowadays! Haahaa. Here mich, this is to accompany u. So that you wun b so v bored at home. Haahaa!
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Thursday, April 14, 2005
Stats was like a zoo tdy. Haahaa. Jenny knows y. A short parrot, a black ape n an unknown species yet to b identified n ya, e zookeeper was sitting next to me. Wahaha! But e unknown species has BEAUITIFUL eyes! Long lashes! WOOHOO! Mayb I shall declare him a human aftall. Haahaa!
Neway, got a scare frm ant during stats. Asked me to bring him his ba bao dai cos he SCRAPED his heel. It wasnt jus a superficial cut lo. I tink he "PLUGGED" in his foot lo. Deep gash. So much blood that I actually had to bring his slipper to e toilet and rinse. Played nurse to his cut. Wahaha! Kool! Hope nth major happens! CHOI! Hope Im quite a gd slipper-rinser, feet-wiper n plaster-sticker! Haahaa! Anty, pls take care of ur cut n not let neting happen to it! Keep it CLEAN n DRY! Stats was super boring. I tuned out halfway n Jen was like saying was I even tuned in e 1st place then I went on to say no reception! Wahaha. Okie. U guys prob wun find it funny. But me n jenny get e joke! Haahaa! Emily is so funny tdy! Haahaa! She is my best audience I tell u! Haahaa. Everything I shoot ant she will jus laugh n laugh n vibrate! Haahaa! Yeah man! Jenny's parents came n we hitched a ride frm her to J8. Jenny took over e wheels n me n jenny's mum n ant n were squeezed like sardines in e rear seats. n SUDDENLY her mum jus popped e qns to me, " u wan to cut fat?" Haahaa! den I jus said I m happy n contented e way Im! Haahaa! Me ric and ant went to ve supper at J8 macs. E guy was so funny n entertaining. Though he was perspiring like mad, he still served us enthusiasticaly lo! We waited rather long for our unsalted fries n my mcspicy so in apology, he let us pick 2 desserts FOC! Haahaa! We chose strawberry n choc sundae! WheEeEee! Haahaa! So pple, support him yah! E one inside J8. Though I tink he was lookin at my u-noe-wad when tokin to me, pretty obvious, he was lookin down, not at my face! WAHAHA! BHB! I shall forgive him since he was so nice to us! We cldn catch e last 53 so me n ant shared a cab. E cabbie driver is super gd at inducing car-sickness, merlion sensation in us lo! So shaky n jerky! Oh man! e worst i ve ever meant. Was forced to alight wif ant n change a cab. It was so bad I had to drink water n take in big gulps of air to calm myself down! YUCK! But I got rewarded with a super nice n zai wan aft tat! Haahaa. Mich, I noe I was being v tough on u jus nw. I know I hav no right to judge. But, I just feel that u r way too good for him now. Til e day he changes for e better n really turns over a new leaf okie. I dun want him to mislead u. I dun wan u to feel any pain uneccessarily. Every action of his can affect you. It's not good. Worser still if it's a viscious cycle. You got out of it so why step into this quick sand pit?!? No matter what u do, wht i agree wif or violently object. U noe I will support u la. I will jus b here fer u always okie. Haiz. Haahaa!
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Thursday, April 14, 2005
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Oh man! Disturbed sleep this morn. Got stirred up at 745 hearing ah pa's voice n again at 9++. Mins b4 I was supposed to wake up! ARGH! Izzn that e worst?!? Had a dream bout ant n mich n ric n me set in skool. Haahaa! Hurmm, AYE AYE ric n mich! I think too much! Haahaa! Neway, got outta e hse at 1050, la-di-la, was off to skool at 12! Haahaa! 1hr 10mins!!! WOOHOO!!! 1hr10mins to reach der, get a queue # ( 9 pple b4 me ), I barely warmed e seat n it was my time. WAHAHA! n guess hu served me?!? WAHAHA! This v good-looking staff who I ve been secretly bio-ing since I 1st started driving lessons there! He just seems so perfect n nice! ( well, he has to, aftall, it's his job scope. Customer Service ya noe?!? ) wahaha! June 14 will b e last time I get to bio him! Wahaha! Cos, its my PRACTICAL DRIVING TEST DATE!!! n NOPE! Ric, ur words r so NOT gonna come true! I WILL PASS ON MY FIRST TIME!!! I MUST! HURR!!! Wish me luck pple! I will strive for e best! Wahaha! Im quite excited!!! Neway, if u guys wanna cut the queueing time at Comfort Driving Centre at Ubi, pls reach there at 11am, best before 2pm yah! Kinda suay to realise this only now, when I no longer hav to queue up there anymore!
Went to skool to study once again! Joined everybody hu was der tdy fer lunch. Wahahaha!!! Peeps! Long time no see!!! Take care yah! n dun die of stress!!! It will soon b OVER! haahaa! Went lib to study A.L.O.N.E cos my "FAVOURITEST" person was late again. Act, e library is really a v CONDUCIVE environment to mug. Cos everyone else is too. Furthermore, time jus flies n work gets done. U wun b caught staring at e time, counting mins n seconds. Haahaa! Nope, e lib is not paying me! My stomach is an endless pit tdy! haahaa! Check it out. Wantan mee ( 1+pm ) Rojak + Pan-fried Seabass ( 5pm ) Chilli Steam Fish + Plain Rice ( 9pm ) Within EIGHT hrs!!! Wahaha! OH! Mentos n M&Ms during my CSI! Caught my 1st episode of CSI:NY jus now! WAHAHA! Hurm... not as good as Miami n Las Vegas. Not as characteristic n interesting as e latter. The setting and e characters themselves did not differentiate themselves from normal Police-Thief shows, hasn't earned their own distinct flavor YET. I shall wait n see, n till den, I shall still remain a TRUE BLUE CSI SUPPORTER! Haahaa! Thot of sending a msg to yw while I was on e train. Was standing. There were seats but I didn want to be caught sitting btw 2 ape-ish ( Jen Ur FAV ) men. Coincidentally yw called me. He is mad. He is on course nw and he had to run 10km tis morn! WTH! @#$%^#$%^&*!!! I wld die. I wld need like 4 gym sessions to cover that distance. Haahaa! U go mortal ( e angel-mortal game? we havent outgrown it yet since J2?!? ) Haahaa! I didn hang up on YOU okie! Dun u dare malign or accuse me! Haahaa! Neway, I was underground. Too noisy even though there was still a strong reception! Haahaa! Good luck for ur course yah! Take good care dude! Told daniel a conspiracy I had last nite. Haahaa! He thot of e same thing too. Dunno to say "GREAT MINDS THINK ALIKE" or "FOOLS SELDOM DIFFER" Haahaa! Neway! Hopefully it works out. n hopefully my loud n big mouth n excitement doesn get e better of me n brings this entire conspiracy down. Sigh. Shihua! hw r u doin? Dun wan to msg u or call u. Thers only so much tat can b accomplished via sms n phone call. We must meet up soon! Aft my exams okie! I promise. YES!!! I ve a date wif u! REM!!! Take care okie! Dun stress out! Alice! Wahaha! We like totally stopped emailing each other fer like hw long! Hope u r well taken care of! Have been kpo-ing ur frenster! Haahaa! My jie-meis!!! u-noe-hu-u-r! Exams fever huh! Hiyo! JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU! n rem to take care of urselves okie dokie! Miss u babes man! Sim, Sunshiners! PERSEVERE! Haahaa! It will b over soon enough! When shall we go party or pig out or Ktv again??? Haahaa! Act I wanted to say. I didn mind. Its okie. You got me.
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Monday, April 11, 2005
wahaha! cldn stand nua-ing at home e entire day so I finally made up my mind at like 330 to go skool n STUDY! haahaa! I had to get away frm my BED!!! wahaha! e weather was jus too conducive! Im sure many wld agree with me!
Neway, it was drizzly lightly when I left the hse. My mum is so xi4 xin1! She helped me buckled my bag ( which I usually leave unbuckled for convenience sake but I didn bear to tell her ). HEEHEE! n I tell ya! Im amazed that my mum is act quite skill in sms-ing... ok. tonight 10 we wait at the carpark.(mum) ok.(me) you win liao loh.(mum) SEE! my mum actually knows to send tat sms. It was meant to say that I win already cos I got my way, ask my dad to fetch n he really did! haahaa!!! I was so shocked that I actually asked wht it was my sis hu typed tat! haahaa! I just felt that my mum v nice n funny tdy! Oh yah! n when I reached hm, I was craving for food! N when I looked into e fridge, there were sandwiches! Haahaa! I asked my dad whose were they for n my dad said it was for ME!!! YEAH!!! My mum so nice! Know I will look for food at night so she prepared these for me so that I wun eat sth UNHEALTHY! haahaa! well, oso cos she cant stand me growing sideways! haahaa! Tml I shall REALLY REALLY go book my driving!!! REALLY REALLY! PROMISE!!!
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Monday, April 11, 2005
UOL IBM 9-5pm! She is just so long-winded and boring! Wahaha! Was super duper pissed with somebody this morning! Guess only he can make me so pek cek! ( The people closest to you hurts you e most. ) Wahaha! But he made it up to me in e end. THANKEW fer sending me home n even volunteerng to get food for me if not for unforeseen circumstances. *wink* haahaa!
Here are a few things to think about: If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two way street. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted. Its true that we dun know what we ve got until we lost it but its also true that we dun know what we ve been missing until it arrives. The happiest of pple dun necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most out of everything that comes along their way. ( Ant, this is for u. ) The best kind of friend is the one you can sit on the porch, swing with, never saying a word and then walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you ever had. ( For all my GOOD FRIENDS! I treasure you! ) ( Ric n Mich, for e 3 of us! ) When one door of happiness closes, another opens but often we look so long at the closed door that we dun see the one which has been opened for us. It hurts to love someone and not to be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never finding the courage to let the person know. A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end it was never meant to be n u just have to let go. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you cant go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. If 1 fine day I turn into a blur and confused person who sends wrong msgs to e wrong pple and forgets to bring my wallet or handphone wherever I go and goes in the wrong directions, do not be surprised. Im surrounded by pple like that in SIM! haahaa! Kiddin!
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Monday, April 11, 2005
Saturday, April 09, 2005
"Why u still holding on?"
"No what. Just asking." ( Maybe I really want to give it one last try. Since we noe we can be happy. Since we noe its all about lowering of expectations and learning to say sorry. I dun want to have any regrets. I want to know that I did all I can but it just wasnt meant to be. ) But I also noe. If there are no feelings anymore, nothing can be said or done. Maybe I can take all your rubbish and your brand of humour. Like you said, Im the only one who can, who bothers and who cares. Maybe I can live with you being selfish. Maybe I cant. Maybe Im saying all that just to be with you again. So many maybes. Only you can tell me e ans ant. I wasnt tempted to hug you. It crossed my mind before but I told myself not to and I noe I wldn. I was afraid that if I did, there would be repercussions. You wldn give me a lift anymore. It would affect this friendship that we have. But, I didn want to regret. I hugged even tighter. I wanted to let you know that no matter what happens I will be here for you. There is nth we cant tok about rite? "So how you feel like that?" "Nth." "huh?!?" "Yah! cos u r not mine anymore wad." Well, ant, I really do treasure you as a friend. You are a great friend of mine. SOmebody who will always have a special place in my heart. Just like hz is in yours.
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Saturday, April 09, 2005
Thursday, April 07, 2005
wahaha! i ve been up since *drumrollls* 11am n its already 6am in e morn! haahaa! n im still online, tokin to mich! wahaha!
lets see, I went to meet mich at PS tdy to watch the wedding date tdy! SO SWEEEEEEEEET! haahaa! even marcus, mich's bro hu watched it with us felt that it was not bad! e lead is so CHARMING n CHARISMATIC!! n he is like e PERFECT guy hu noes exactly how to treat a lady right! WAHAHAHA! forgetting to mention 1 suay incident tho! e sun was so glaring n when I happily walked to e bus stop wif my this particular pair of shoes, a blister grew n burst n i had to walk home n change! "-_-" budden neway! so we went hunting for a pair of slip ons! I FINALLY GOT MY 1ST PAIR IF SLIP ONS FRM NOVU!!! haahaa! Changed into it immediatly aft i bought it cos i was feeling all weird n conscious e whole aftnoon wearing my original ones. haahaa! SO HAPPIE! Mich bot 2 tops! Quick shopper that girl! haahaa! Neway, it was pouring heavily n we had to call for a cab! well, mich my dear girl is RATHER blur! haahaa! she was happily telling me that e car plate was 5*** yet moments ltr, she started pointing to this car n exclaiming excitedly that it was ours when it OBVIOUSLY started wif 6****! haahaa! HIYO!!! haahaa! Had to gobble my bk on e cab! reminded of those mot days...SIGH... Then, it was boring soci lessons for e nxt 3hrs! haahaa!*SKIP* We went KTV at cine lvl8 KBOX! it was quite a slow kickstart for us but we soon got into e hype of things n we initially only intended to stay till 3am budden we overstayed till 5am! haahaa! It was really fun! n HIDDEN talents were uncovered! oh man! im like e worst of dem all! dey can ALL sing so well lO! esp ric! heehee! he realli surprised us! he sounds best when he sings english songs! n ant, well, though he will sing out of tune, but his nice tone is still der. JENNY is MARVELOUS! even better den sum singers out der in e mkt these days! mich sounds so soothing n in ctrl when she sings! haiz! im like e worst! haahaa! budden its okie! i will always b deir #1 FANS!!! haahaa! n only by singing along side a person like me will it show deir prowess! haahaa! well, quite sad though, i had to take a cab alone hm... well, hu ask me to b e only one stayin in e EAST! haiz! haahaa! well! budden i m super satisfied n happie wif tdy! haahaa! THANKEW kakis!!! we must do it more often!! wahaha!
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Thursday, April 07, 2005
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
hmmm... i tink e less i sleep e more i can sustain throughout the day. Budden again causing e trains n buses to b my 2nd bed! haahaa! n to those unsuspecting neighbours of mine on e transport, their shoulders! haahaa! well, went to sch to study tdy n i was early enough to get BIG BREAKFAST wif mich at e airport tdy! haahaa!
so wanted to catch e new episode of CSI:NY n aft tat CSI:MIAMI 2hrs of CSI back to back but e plan was foiled when my sis told me tat we were gg to watch hse of fury tonite. well. SACRIFICES! hse of fury is nt bad! FUNNY n well, e stances n martial arts were gd esp for anthony wong ( nt u ant! ) he lost alot of wt! budden e substitute stunt men were rather fake! it was obvious dey got substitutes. budden again, e other like extras, fighters were super kool n shuai! haahaa! ric! Thanks fer e entry! I was still tellin ave that we shld hug tog n CRY LOUD n HARD! for e last time! well, i tink e quote really depicts wad i feel now. Im okie already! honestly! THANKEW all so much! I wun hide my tears! When dey come rolling down i will make sure i wet everybodys sleeves wif it! haahaa!
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Im getting alot of static frm my chair recently! keeps "shocking" my fingers whenever I brush pass it accidentally. Neway! Today was a sleeping nua-ing day for me. haahaa! Prob to make up for e past wk or recharge for the wk to come! haahaa. Manage to do a chapt of econs jus nw though.
Yeah! tml will b quite a fruitful day I suppose. Hopefully I can wake up! haahaa! Getting into e Exam mood... NOW only. SIGH! but better den nth! haahaa! Gotta go book my driving pract test n auto lessons budden havent had any discipline to crawl outta my bed in e early mornings to go get it done! oh well! haahaa! 1 of these days ah!!!!
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Monday, April 04, 2005
i suppose e rain tdy came at a gd timing. plans made were cancelled. just stayed in n dreamt my entire morning away. haahaa! its been a long time since i slept in! esp when e weather is so conducive! haahaa.
chatted wif ric n mich n jenny n han on msn... doesn seem much but i really enjoyed tokin to dem. dor was so sweet. she text 933 as ELMO! haahaa! saying sth like she loves her DEAR QW FOREVER or sth lidat!!!haahaa! n nt FORGETTING ME!!! wahaha! i m happie n cheering up dor!!! dun worry bout me!!! THANKEWWW!!!! BIG HUGS!!!! wahahaha! i dunno wht i miss him but 1 thing fer certain cos i see mich n ric n jen almost everyday i miss u guys! haahaa!
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Monday, April 04, 2005
went to watch e eye with ric n ant n jenny! oh man! i broke my record! haahaa! i SCREAMED! wahaha! ric is so farnie... he will tell me to relax so that i wun b so tensed up n freak out...well, i listened to him n did just that BUT moments ltr, he wld jus called out 2me in a scared way! i mean!?! n i will get scared all over again. use our jacket sleeves to cover our mouths! haahaa! it was hilarious! wahaha! but its bin a loooooong time since i was spooked! haahaa! it was funny! haahaa! ric! sorry for scaring u ric! haahaa! but u noe wad! i suppose it was really fun sitting next to ric! everything jus gets intensified like X5!!!haahaa!
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Monday, April 04, 2005
Saturday, April 02, 2005
i must LOVE myself more.
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Saturday, April 02, 2005
dun worry. u r not leading me on cos i dun hope nemore. i only hope that u treat me like that good friend you promised. I will miss you no doubt. but thats that. i hope u understand.
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Saturday, April 02, 2005
3hrs. thats a rather long duration. i wondered what went right. haahaa. its been a long time.
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Saturday, April 02, 2005
Last night, this was what I was feeling. Until today. I realised. U n me are good friends no doubt. Friends that click very well. Friends who can talk bout everything and anything under the sun n share endless laughter. However, I will be willing to listen to you any time at all. Would you? I can say that we had never been that sort of good friends before. When it all started you already had a soft spot for me. You would be willing to go the extra mile, provide the listening ear to me any time I want. 120%. But now? Ask urself honestly. You dun feel the need. The need comes in the form of responsibility. A responsibility to check on me, a feedback on the past. Well, maybe everything sounds extreme maybe that's not true but Im quite sure somewhere is this passage, sth is quite right.
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Saturday, April 02, 2005
Friday, April 01, 2005
There are so many things I wanna put into words. But I cant. All I can say is that. I cant get what I want. I have to learn to let go. To start anew. Things are dfferent now. 1 day all will be meaningless. 1 fine day when all is brought up I wun feel nething. But I dun wan.
Some things need some getting used to. Some things haven set into both of us yet. All I know is that I dun wan these changes. But I have to. I like today. Today was like in e past, way before everything started. Happy Aprils Fools Day pple.
Posted by iMKAiJiE at Friday, April 01, 2005
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